31 Weeks

Doctor's appointment was this week. They officially let me know that my Glucose Test was normal and I figured out what to do about a pediatrician (besides find one now-ish) and insurance for Chloe. We have to start going for check-ups every 2 weeks for a while now. I also figured out how much insurance for her (and The Husband) would cost. Those numbers didn't really make me all that happy, but that's life. The Husband did get a couple of better employment leads this week though, so that's awesome. I'm working out some kind of plan to save money so that it wont be too much of a burden for me to not be working while on maternity leave.

This week has brought BACK PAIN. I think it's mostly because I was moving around and lifting things I really shouldn't way too much this week, but I'm still learning how to sit the hell down and chill out. The Husband got to be in awe this week though...he's been getting to feel a lot of the "hey, I'm a baby now" movements I talked about in the last post. They freak him out. It's cute. I like that every new thing for him makes him even more full of love for Chloe...since he can't directly experience her like I do its fun to watch his experience of her. All those new movements may make it hard for me to sleep soon...sitting is becoming less appealing as sometimes she just moves around almost the ENTIRE time. I can still sleep at the moment, but I feel her. GROIN PAIN is also a reality. That is a pain that is just NOT fun, but gives me excuses to stretch it out with lunges up and down the hallway.

I dunno how much bigger I can get...

This week for Chloe:

• 3+ pounds and 18 inches of baby is inside of me. I find this weird at times, and wonder how people actually walk by the end with all that extra weight in the front
• Her brain is processing information, tracking light, and perceiving signals from all of her senses, which explains the defined "baby movements"
• She can turn her head from side to side
• Fat is making her little limbs and body plump up

I feel like I may seem a bit complain-y about being pregnant. In a way I am, but it's because everything about it at any given moment is so completely different from anything I've ever gone through. I'm the type of person who can deal with change, but I need a little bit of time for it to settle in and I don't get that while pregnant. That and they fact that my brain likes to out-think itself and make me second guess my abilities and all kinds of other screwy things doesn't help the situation. Teenager do this every single day somewhere in the world and I'm grown and married...and freaking the hell out. Mom used to tell me that being pregnant was the most happy she'd been in life...and I'm definitely not unhappy, but I'm still dealing with a lot and I feel kind of blind in my situation. No amount of research can replace having mom here to help me. This has been more like the weirdest I've ever felt in life. There are so many good emotions involved that I don't always know what to do with them either (I usually repress emotions). They do help me let unnecessary crap go and not let a lot of things bother me too much, which is awesome.

Hmm...it's probably about time to let people know I'm ready to be showered with baby gifts. Well, officially ready after we move. *tips queen crown, nods and relaxes*